My reason of serenity

People asked me silly questions about life, at least I found them silly sometimes
About the future, family, desires
And many of times I found them irritated by my light answers

Especially nowadays for I even found myself very relaxed about life
I still take my life and dreams very seriously and do them ever so dilligently and persistently
But somehow everything becomes calmer and more serene

It started after contemplating one simple question one night
"What should I do, what is my priority?"
And suddenly I felt so stupid, how could I be so dumb?
The answer is so clear "My other half"

He's the answer of my prayers since childhood.
My silly dreams of prince in shining armour (I did write it in my silly diary)
My warmth, my shield, my strength, my partner in life.
I really couldn't ask for more.

I have what I prayed for.. the rest is just living life the best way I can and doing my best in all the tasks given to me by my Creator.

So there's my reason of serenity.. Simply him.

I love you

I love you, most ardently!

Me and 28

I started listening to Spanish songs, which obviously a language I know nothing about (except 2 swear words which I wrote down in a post-it sticker beside my office desk top. Just in case I need to use it). Dwelling into sentimental persuasions of some dark haired singers.

And I found myself to be a wee lazier. I still ride the bike for a good 6-7 km per day, and prefer stairs than lift, though. But something's sucking out my energy.

I think it's the aging thing, gogghh.
Why is it so hard to freeze on 28? The mature age, respectable age, and under 30, for sure.

I need to jog more
Or just relaxing by the beach (last time, it was somewhere in 2005!!)
Or cut down caffeine

Yeah, i'm just tired :D Nothing to do with 28, after all
Bah!

That's not possible, said he.

I asked him "How much do you love me?"
He replied "You know I'm not very good in expressing that in words"
"Yeah, but I want you to write it anyway" said I

"Well, I love you with all of my life. My days are muted and in black and white without you"

I smiled, that's enough to warm my cold days in Amsterdam

"I love you so much dear" he added
"I love you more" said I
"That's not possible" ended he


.... Amsterdam, and in love....

On waiting for another departure

Yes, I'm 33
And I'm about to make my 3 months offs, 3 months ons journey
Not hoping to add another chapter to Charles Dickens' tale of 2 cities
But am living the title

Looking back to last year's gloomy winter
I'm grateful to have my very best friend this year
To spend the cold days together

I can't wait, oh I can't wait

Family Dentist BSD.wmv

Stevie Wonder - Too Shy To Say

She didn't lose the battle

She just went earlier to that peaceful place


-in deep silence for the loss of a great person-

What a world

I set my coffee maker on, and I stare at my window, trying to enjoy the sun.

There's a man smiling as he goes downhill with his bike,
And another bloke squinting his forehead as he walks on the sideway outside my room

And I wonder,

As a friend struggling between life and death in an ICU room,
with her husband walking back and forth with thousands of things in his head,
What will happen ? What will be the answer to their pain?

This world will keep on spinning, the sun won't stop shining
The smily man will come home enjoying his supper
And the squinty bloke will hopefully find an answer

and my friend will find her cure

-amsterdam, praying for ihut-

A new face

Opened the blog, and it was a mess.
It was 11 PM and I had the urge to find a new one quick.

Not an easy task, I might say, as you tried to find the one really represent yourself.

For me, it's simple and serene

Well, jaah, I guess it represents what I need, not what I am :)

Enough about me, it's not about me at all... It's about a journey

Conversation between Him and me

You want 1000 things
But you'll get what you need

So open your eyes,
See the path
And be focused

You greedy prick!

broken hearted

And she sat there
All by herself
With her hands covering her face
Eyes closed

And I asked : What happen?

She just looked at me with her teary eyes,
Someone broke my heart, said she, and I know not what to do

She returned to her pose
The windy air didn't help to mend her heart

She just sat there
All by herself

picture taken from www.flickr.com/.../4139894015/

Too many things, so little time

If I can only go to Dusit and have my brain get a bigger memory installed

That'll be SUPER

One step at a time

Will be speaking a new language in one year..

Excited :)

Still inhaling

geduld geduld

Dat is alles wat ik nodig heb op dit moment

Ik zeg mijn hoofd om geduldig te zijn

Een zeer zware taak

him

The constant thinking is tiresome
Always on the edge of knowing,
but ended up looking for more answers

(inhaling)

Can't wait to be united with my other half
To share my pauses
And be safe once again

So, I hope

Spent the afternoon at the clinic, patients work and discussing many things with my senior.
It was a very interesting discussion, lots of ideas thrown on the table

Love it

But on the other hand, I was sooo tired.
Made it so hard to concentrate :(
Is it the weather? Is it the restless sleep of too much coffee?
The big exam on upcoming Thursday? (it's been awhile since my last exam)

I can do this ( I hope)

Dead tired

I do want this opportunity
A dream comes true, really for me
But why does it become so hard?

Never ending works
Hundreds of pages to observe on
So many things on superficial level,
really are stressing me out

I have to conquer this

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Tired as I can ever be
I stare blank at the window
To the white path and dark sky

Heck with it
It is Friday
And I deserve a break!

It's business as usual

When one learn about business life,
One must admit, that it's hard indeed

Tried to learn to set personal feelings aside
And I must say, It's a challenge for me,
but as my husband keeps repeating,
it's just business, nothing else

mhmhm..
Will ponder on that
And try to press my emotion from blocking my sights

A bit afraid that I will turn into those capitalists
But jaah, as long as I keep my feet on the ground
And pray along the way
I'm sure I'm on the safe side.

Let one hope.